I’m thinking about Abraham and Sarah, who, even after recieving messages and confirmation of recieving the blessing of a child, went ahead and had Abraham sleep with another woman and impregnate her.
I always considered them so foolish for treating their marriage so carelessly, even though it was apparently the custom of the day for couples, who couldn’t have children themselves, to use another woman to build a family through.
I am sure that, as much as Abraham heard from and encountered the Lord, he would have received understanding that he was waiting for further promptings/direction from the Lord on the matter. I’d be quite unconvinced if the Lord was said to have been the One who directed Sarah and Abraham to have a child by a different woman.
I believe they began struggling with belief that the Lord was truly going to be reliable. They may have questioned whether He was going to be consistent in keeping His word to them. Was He going to allow them to hope in expectation and then crush it by helping them to physically receive their blessing? Perhaps they were leaning on their own understanding, which might tell them that they had to make it happen themselves to recieve it, thus using the custom they knew.
I have been mindful of these entraping thoughts on my own journey to physically recieving blessings that I have specifically asked for. When in those feelings of hopelessness concerning my Lord’s reliability, my trust is really pressed roughly on every side. When trust goes down, the feeling of responsibility on self to need to figure everything out and hold it together on my own strength rises up. But even on days when I don’t see the progress and process, there is no reason to doubt the Lord.
To believe Who the Lord says He is and to know His character becomes the vital key to not doubting. The Lord is Love and to mislead or break trust are NOT loving characteristics for any relationship and not of the Lord. Misleading and trust breaking tear down a relationship….and the Lord says in the Gospels that
“A kingdom divided against itself will collapse. A home filled with strife and division destroys itself. And if Satan is fighting against himself, how can he accomplish anything?” ~Mark 3:24-26
If the Lord is hurt us in these unhealthy ways, then He would be tearing down His own body/household.
So, on days when what you see or feel doesn’t seem to be matching what you know the Lord is guiding you in and wanting to bless you in, you can hold on to who He is and have confidence that His intention is still to progess forward. And each detail, some seemingly so small, isn’t always immediately noticeable, but will make up the bigger physical manifestation of the blessing!